something goes wrong ?

i dare not hope for anything because i seriously afraid of false hope 

i dare not ask for anything because i really scared of losing anything that appeared in front of me 

when things come suddenly and without any signs - just like tsunami 

it could be scary. 

i would seriously appreciate if god give me an encyclopedia which i can refer any of my curiosity by searching in this book. it could be fantastic and wonderful for me. 

what should i do to understand you ? 

don't let me drown ~